I was shown a major insight today. It’s more a personal thing about me and something I stand for, but it brought me such peace in my being that I would be honoured to share it.
I have always struggled with the idea of ‘selling’ my music. I have always been uncomfortable with the idea of putting a set price or materialistic value on who I am and my gift of singing.. I also never liked telling other people what I think is right for them to do, i.e.. “Ok, so you can give me $25 for my CD.” There was always something just not quite right about it for me. And when I did receive large amounts of cash for my music, I felt bad receiving it.
I also believed however, that it was possible to do what you feel and what you love and be supported in this… but how can I do this if I don’t charge people?? On top of this, I also didn’t value myself as I was born to in earlier years, and I feel perhaps I was concerned that this lack of willingness to ‘sell’ my stuff was a deficiency in my own self value… Now however, I do value myself. I also know that I am going to give my music away.
It feels so good to have actually made that decision. Previously I was worried by what people would think, that they would say that I was being reckless or stupid or irresponsible, but to be honest I don’t care anymore. I am going to be true to my own heart.
This doesn’t mean that I am not willing to receive. Actually, it’s quite the opposite! The more I find myself giving willingly simply because I feel to, and with absolutely no expectation of anything in return, the more open I become to life’s abundant gifts. I no longer feel guilty or selfish for accepting what someone freely offers. I trust the flow. He who refreshes others will himself be refreshed. Freely I have received, so freely I give.