Failure. Such an icky word. Even just writing it makes me get all tense and constricted within. I felt like a failure last week. It was more the subconscious things that made me pay attention. I was tired all the time, couldn’t sleep very well, didn’t bounce out of bed in the morning (which is actually really unusual for me!)… I was telling myself I was fine, but after a few days I stopped and paid attention.
“What’s wrong Sarah?” I asked… Then the tears.. The frustration. Th anger. The sadness. “I feel like a failure.” I thought about it for a while. What exactly had I failed at?
I pondered the meaning of the word failure. Failure is not experiencing setbacks, making mistakes, or trying something new and not getting it the first time. It is not failing to achieve goals that other people have set for you. (Like someone saying you’ve failed at being an olympic high jumper when that was never a goal you set for yourself!!) It is not even failing to achieve goals you have set for yourself. Failure is when you lie down and never get back up again knowing that deep down you really want to. Failure is giving up on what you believe indefinitely.
Temporary setbacks, mistakes, trying new things, changing your plans.. All these are steps leading to success! There are many different definitions to success… I like to think of it as a person Being all that they know they are deep down. To live without fear. To love. This takes massive amounts of bravery; courage. You will get knocked down at times.. keep getting up. Every time you do you are getting that little bit stronger.
I read a quote this morning, “There is nothing so useless as doing efficiently that which should not be done at all.” (Peter Drucker)
If you focus on the things that TRULY matter to YOU deep down, all other things will be added unto you. Look past your fears, your hurts, your disappointments, other people’s expectations… Find you. Succeed at that. You cannot lose. You will never fail.