The past year has been one of the best of my life. I feel as though I have been making so many decisions in favour of who I really am, and that is the most amazing feeling. The past year has also been one of the most challenging. It’s like God and the Universe know I’m ready to face my biggest fears.. Then suddenly the opportunities to do this are presented!
As I have heard many times before, “The darkest hour is just before the dawn.” It’s at the point where you find yourself thinking. “Man, have I been kidding myself? I thought I’d been progressing only to find myself here again!” that we must realise how far we have actually come. This is the final showdown.
My big opportunity at the moment, appears in the form of a physical ailment that I find particularly scary. I almost died from this when I was younger, and although I overcame the symptoms momentarily back then (much to my relief!!), it is something that keeps appearing in my life.
This time I have decided that enough is enough. I am going to face it head on, and look directly at what’s going on, rather than simply willing it to go away. In the past I have turned to things and solutions outside of myself, as though I was something that needed to be ‘fixed’. Not this time. I accept myself as I am. I accept myself unconditionally as a whole Being. There is nothing that I am to be ashamed of. Nothing to be hidden. I am perfect as I am; lacking nothing. In this moment right now, I am complete.
I am whole.
I am perfect. I am loved. I am powerful. I am harmonious. I am happy. I am strong. I am abundant.. These are the truths I believe.
In the past I have believed things like: I am broken. I am not good enough. I ought to be ashamed. I am selfish. I should work harder. I am lacking… and the list goes on. That’s what made me sick, what brought me pain, what held me back.
The final showdown is here.
I am whole.