“Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.”
I remember reading this quote by Kurt Cobain and liking it so much that it landed a place on the back of my bathroom door. Wanting to be someone else IS a waste of the person you are.
Today when I looked up and read it I saw it as “Waiting to be somebody else is a waste of the person you are.” Wow, it really sunk into the depths of me. If you’re forever waiting to be better this or better at that, or have more time or money or equipment, or whatever, you’re never really fully valuing the present and who you are right now, and therefore never really living. Rather, you’re forever waiting.. And that sucks!
It also sends out the message of not Being enough, and that seems to attract all kinds of experiences that will emphasise that.
I spent a large portion of my younger years waiting and feeling less than good enough to be and do the things that I truly valued. It was torture. Like a caterpillar in a cocoon who knows it could fly if it could just break free of the old restrictions, but for some reason won’t do anything about it. I would look at other people and wonder how they were able to do so much while I felt powerless to move.
These days, anytime I catch myself thinking, “I will do this when..” I immediately find a way to do it now even if it is only in the smallest way. For example, today my sister showed me a beautiful guitar she just bought and I started thinking, “Maybe I should wait to start recording until I have money to buy a better guitar, or until I have money saved to pay for a few songs at once..” No! I stopped myself mid thought.. I can start now! I have money for one session, I’ll start with that. And in the meantime, I can record at home with the equipment I have now. It may not be the best quality available, but it’s what I have now.
It’s amazing how much you realise you have, and how much more finds its way to you when you choose to be a good steward over what you have now. This has been gold in my life. “A year from now you will wish you had started today.” You’ll have wished you started now 🙂
Give of what you do have. Now.
“Waiting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.” Sarah Shah